All posts filed under: YOGA

My life is not selfish, it is full of self

Your life is your own, so make choices that best serve you. What a concept! This might sound selfish, but selfish is not the correct word as selfishness has deeply rooted negative connotations that attach itself to this word. Mainly the idea that being concerned about one’s self always comes at the cost of someone else. Instead of thinking about the act of choice that involves your best interests as selfish, think about it as taking care of yourself and knowing thyself. Make choices that embody self-care, self-respect, and self-love. BE SELF-FULFILLED. When we make choices that honor our selves, than we are on the right path. In this current world we have so many people throwing advice at us, shaped from their own experiences and choices mostly, and that’s great. But we have to use a filter when we hear and read others’ stories, we have to digest this information in a way that makes sense to us alone, and we have to decide what would best serve us. This concept does not mean …

Now is now; be here

In my life I have experienced a lot of craziness. I think we forget we all have in our own way, we’ve all been witness to sorrow and heartbreak, trauma and depression, anger and pain, frustration and fear, but we have all also experienced happiness and joy, love and light, positivity and miracles, smiles and embraces. No matter what you’re feeling or what you’re thinking the present moment is where you should be. My friend Angela said this the other day, which may be a quote from elsewhere, and it absolutely resonates with me: “Be where your feet are”. Be grounded in the now. A lot of people my age have been placed on this fast-track toward their “successful career”. I was fortunate enough to have a mom who stayed home often to take care of and raise my brother and I, but so many have had no one around looking after them or been raised by a system whether it be the government care system or childcare. Regardless of how stable or unstable your …

I’m not perfect – but I can sing

I am a perfectionist. I have been since I was born, probably. I’m meticulous and definitely way too hard on myself. I’m borderline masochistic and vehemently judgmental of myself internally. The best part is, I don’t have to be this way. I can choose to change, to let go and surrender, to give myself the respect I so willingly offer up to others. It’s only fair. So, this morning, when I awoke once again after only a few hours of sleep I decided to sing. I love singing (secretly, shh don’t tell anyone) and also have always wanted to be in a band (I write songs and lyrics but I’ve been a coward about sharing my voice…til now! DUNDUNDUN). I meditated this morning, did a little yoga, and decided to sing my little itty bit heart out. I warmed up my vocal chords briefly and recorded a few songs without pausing, rehearsing, editing, or repeating songs over again. And it felt GREAT. I even listened to them and enjoyed them without judging, sure I know …

Reiki energy healing

I’m learning reiki at the Organic Angel in Norfolk, MA which is run by my dear friend Angela Cote. If you don’t know anything about reiki know this: it’s a form of physical healing utilizing the invisible positive energy which is all around us! It’s super cool. Other forms of energy work include acupuncture, massage, yoga and tai chi (among others). The first part of reiki certification known as reiki one is all about self-healing – which is exactly what I need – exactly what *most* people need. Our first evening together last night was incredible. I was with the same wonderful group of women I did yoga teacher training with (sans one) and the energy in the room was just as vibrant and beautiful as it always was. We opened the session up with meditation and some chanting. Those who are weary of meditation and chanting should know that it’s not a “religious” thing — when you meditate and/or chant you connect with yourself and if you believe in God or a higher power …

Living with insomnia

Insomnia is the main reason why I haven’t been blogging. I’m sure there are a couple of other posts where I apologize to the internet for being MIA and make excuses – but this is REALLY legitimate. I’m serious. Have you ever not gotten enough sleep or pulled an all-nighter? How does your body feel after one day of that? Typically it’s not great. Now try averaging an hour of sleep for a week straight, driving to work, and accomplishing regular everyday tasks (this is super dangerous, when you think about it). Well, that is what my life has been like at times the past several months. When your brain does not get enough sleep, the body shuts down too. Life becomes this downward spiral and your mind tunnel visions everything – your perception of reality and life is more skewed than normal. Check out this Wedmd synopsis of insomnia if you so desire. My symptoms have varied from withdrawal, lack of appetite, depression, anxiety, headaches, dizziness, and generally feeling horrible! I have been humbled …

Practice yoga (even when you don’t want to!)

Practicing YOGA, whether it’s mindfulness or asanas (the postures/poses) helps everyone. I’M SERIOUS. Even just breathing in a mindful way helps! NO JOKE. Can you tell I’m a bit tired and/or high from yoga? LOL. Anyway, practicing yoga even when you don’t want to is incredible and will change your attitude, for sure. I’ve been suffering from intense insomnia at least one week a month for the past several months. It’s been pissing me off while I’ve been on my yogic journey, though, whenever it happens my mind cycles viciously and spirals into negativity toward myself and I kind of just shut down. I don’t want to go to yoga classes, let alone move. It’s incredibly frustrating!! This evening I went to my 3-hour yoga class, after getting a very thoughtful email from my yoga guru. I had told her about my insomnia and how frustrated/sad I was and that I wasn’t sure if I could make it and to paraphrase her she was basically like: JUST COME, IT WILL BE GOOD FOR YOU. And …