All posts filed under: YOGA

What the F@#! happened?!

I’m exactly where I never wanted to be: Franklin, Massachusetts. Ever since we moved here when I was 12 I have not liked the place we lived. Our home always felt like a house, my peers always seemed too interested in things I could care less for, and I always felt like there was nothing to do in this area. I used to become ill regularly (there were a few years I hung out with doctors at least once a month) and I definitely suffered from bouts of depression throughout my time living here prior to moving away for college. Granted, we moved here during trying times. My Uncle Phil had died on September 11th the year before, we moved from Michigan where we had begun making our roots after moving there only three years before, and my mom’s best friend was dying. When I look back at that time of my life from where I am at today I cannot believe I even made it through those phases of my life, especially because I …

UTTERLY CHANGED

           , into the forest one way, come out another; changed – guided by sandled feet spirit led me to an opening a familiar clearing sacred space and so I walked/ran down the manmade path within this feminine body in a way utterly known.   at a point bugs whispering one ear to the next stooping, breathing, unshodding shoes leaving keys, and the green behind, barefoot I sauntered stepping hollowed ground.   my feet shooting into the Earth, rooted and lithe I AM HERE each moment moving deeper shedding my former self embracing this new ME within US.   hawks call and soar unseen presence witnessing transforming their screech rises inside me call-response my cells alight as my spirit soars.   following moss to see tall trees and pine visions from my dreams manifesting as the forest gives and takes blood for wisdom our connection runs deeper as my heart pulsates OUR CORE HEALING HOT.   guided by angels, guides, animals, spirit intuition balancing across fallen trees STAND STRONG supported by nature’s hewned walking sticks …

Pros and Cons, yo!

There is a distinct balance to everything — positives and negatives. I recalled the pro/con list concept today after catching an episode of Gilmore Girls. It’s about 12:44 am where I’m at and I’m wide awake. In the past few hours I’ve: donated to Poetry on the T and thanks to that I will have the opportunity to meet and learn from one of my new favorite poets Lloyd Schwartz – check out one of my favorite pieces of his: A True Poem become a member of the Mass Audubon Society — and so has my brother thanks to a belated graduation present from me 😛 applied to a couple of part-time jobs to support my new(er) yogic lifestyle. contemplated the meaning of life and realized there is an inherent juxtaposition between, well, everything Specifically, in the here and now, I recognize that there are two different types of insomnia: good insomnia and bad insomnia. Good insomnia involves insane productivity for mine and possibly others’ highest and best. Bad insomnia entails a downward shame spiral …

June is Healing Month — for me

So, I’ve decided this month is all about self-healing. As a sensitive human being, yoga instructor, and reiki practitioner I’ve come to understand the need for self-healing and love more and more. It’s one of the most important things about being human. As someone who is very empathic it was far too easy for me to give myself and my power away to others. I thought I was helping people, and perhaps I often was, but I was truly draining myself too often. It might sound selfish, but taking care of yourself has to be an utmost priority. This is in fact a selfless act, because taking really good care of yourself will provide you with the ability and energy to assist others more! Every body wins!! So, that’s my goal this June: to allow myself to heal and be gentle with myself. To do this I plan on doing the following things: -writing at least 2 hours daily -practicing at least one hour of yoga for myself -meditating at least 20 minutes daily -reiki …

Being Sensitive

I used to *HATE* when people would call me “sensitive”, or better yet too sensitive. That just felt like the way I was and it always felt like something I couldn’t help but be. For a highly social and sociable kid I was already a writer and bookworm in elementary school. I was always feeling, always worried about the kids getting picked on in school, always watching or reading scenes on TV and in books — and then feeling them so deeply within me. On more than one occasion my mom would have to tell me “it’s just a movie,” … even to this day. And I learned to hate how I felt, in a way, I learned to be ashamed of how I perceived the world around me. And in a way I learned how to be “tough” aka wear a mask. It wasn’t until fairly recently that I realized what a beautiful gift it was to be sensitive and how truly brave it is to wear your heart on your sleeve. How amazingly …

Breathe into and out of May Mental Health Awareness

This is a piece I’ve wanted to write for a long time, as it is written on my heart. And I’m trying to open up my heart (and not call my heart “stupid heart” which I just did mentally in my mind…it’s a process, people). Anyway, it’s fitting that May is Mental Health Month. What a good tie-in to the topic I’d like to discuss. First:   It is thought that I may be bipolar [jury’s out but I don’t feel I am]. Or have bipolar tendencies. Or maybe I have something called PMDD (severe PMS – lucky me). Or maybe my MTHFR gene is messed up (I call it the motherfucker gene…someday I’ll look up what it stands for if my insurance decides to cover that test). I tried for a really long time to pretend everything was OK when for months I’d had weeks of sleepless nights, and by sleepless I literally mean some weeks where I only slept maybe one or two hours each night. I tried my best to be brave, …

Easter reminders as yoga reaches out

Hello! If you didn’t know already, I am a practicing Catholic who is simultaneously open to all people with differing faiths (hooray!). If you’re unfamiliar with Catholicism you may not know what Lent is all about besides people “giving up” things like sweets or alcohol or even Facebook. I don’t typically share what I do for Lent but sometimes I focus on giving up certain things/thoughts and/or adding certain things/thoughts into my life. This past Lent involved a major life-shift for me personally. I practiced gratitude everyday and meditated more. I allowed myself to rest more and simply “be”. During my quiet moments I prayed to God and Jesus. And I felt confidence rising within me more and more each day. I let go of a secure job that was not fulfilling me and I am embarking on a new and exciting career in yoga, music, writing, and overall wellness which I hope to share with as many people as possible. I’d share more, and perhaps will another post, but this day isn’t really about …