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Pity Party: TERMINATED

This summer I started yoga teacher training and it kicked my ass. Actually, I started kicking my own ass.

So many people perceive yoga as a set of distinct poses and routines – a workout – but it’s much more than that. It’s a lifestyle.

As a group we have been practicing mindfulness, watching the mind, from the start and I was feeling great. It was tough sometimes, but manageable. OR SO I THOUGHT.

DUN. DUN. DUN.

I started doing the opposite of what I knew I should be doing, following my mind through its self-inflicted negative thought loops like a sober “Alice” traipsing through her own self-created rabbit-hole of gloom and misery.

And I found myself kind of trapped in my mind some days. I’d goad myself and repeat lies like how I’m not good enough and all this BS.

wallowwallow

Wallowing and pity party time 😀

I was actually thinking about things and then overthinking them to the max. I totally didn’t feel like myself at all! IT WAS LAME.

It sounds silly and somewhat pathetic but some days I felt like I couldn’t escape my brain. It was extra infuriating because as a yogi I felt like the ultimate loser.

NOZENWHY

WHERE THE HELL WAS MY ZEN?!

It was bizarre, though, because a lot of this summer was absolutely incredible. I’ll admit I did selfishly take a break from the blogging in order to better hone in on yoga and ultimately self-discovery. DEAL WITH IT.

This yogic lifestyle challenge was so strange for me because I thought I knew myself pretty well. Yet, I learned something new every day and I’m still learning (training doesn’t “stop” until December). It might sound odd but every painful experience, as tough as it has been, is incredibly eye-opening. I think I’m growing! 😛

I was harboring a lot of pent-up emotions I hadn’t really released or even understood, namely anger and sadness, and I’m getting better at letting that go.

And that’s not even the half of it, but that’s the most concise way I can sum up some of my deepest personal experiences halfway through this program.

That and some really thoughtful words from my yoga teacher:

yoga guru

SO WHAT’S NEXT!?

I’m going to start writing some tips and teaching a little bit of yoga here on my blog – sticking with my mantra of “writing and doing things” by actually doing them…and writing about them.

Fingers & toes crossed 😛

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Alexandra Foran: Alexandra is an enthusiastic yoga instructor who enjoys sharing the gift of yoga and meditation with people of all ages. She is flexible and accommodating to all as she leads a practice from the heart. Extending warmth and love to all is a blessing for her. Yoga has personally helped her to heal and grow in profound ways. Yoga helps create balance and harmony; as someone who is highly intuitive, empathic, and a sensitive being she used to often be ill and regularly overextend herself -- she now seeks the peace that yoga can bring to her practice and life. As a poet, writer, musician and artist she infuses different aspects of the creative arts into her classes to create a higher vibration. During particular segments of her classes she uses guided imagery and live music. Alex plays upright bass, electric bass guitar, electric upright bass, violin, guitar, drums, rainmakers, baby harps, singing bowls, crystal bowls, recorders, and didgeridoo. Alexandra is a certified yoga instructor and a certified Reiki Master. To learn more about Alexandra and her services/offerings please go https://alexandraforan.com/services/

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