Today has been a really poetic kind of day for me. I’ve felt very artsy and creative, but I’ve also felt the need to think about my life as of late.
Bits and pieces of my life have felt very out-of-control the past few weeks. I’m the type of person who likes to be in control at all times if possible, you’d think I’d have gone through enough in my life to know that things can’t go according to MY plan, but I still try to wrangle up parts of my life and try to do what I personally want to do.
And then life laughs at me.
Recently, I’ve felt a bit overworked at my job. I’ve been sick of the work drama, stupidity, and incompetence I’ve been encountering on the regular. I’ve been tired of travelling. I’ve just felt really worn out in general.
A lot of weekends I’ve gone out with friends in the Boston area. These weekends have been volatile, ridiculous, and fun. Yet, my weekends have been non-stop as well. I haven’t been so good at giving myself a true break from life’s chaos.
What Is My Life?
Also known as: WIML? I pronounce this as wimmel. Sometimes when I kind of panic about the craziness that is my life I audibly or maybe even inaudibly start rwhimpering wimmel…wimmel…wimmel???
Things have been so crazy lately and I have not felt grounded at all. I’ve been such a social machine that I feel all heady and filled with this consuming extroverted excitement that makes my whole body kind of shaky (but in a good, energy-filled way).
I don’t know much about life.
This is what I’ve realized lately. I have an idea of what I “want” but when I try to think of the span and scope of my ambitions it’s overwhelming.
When I focus my attention within my little bubble I cannot even believe my life sometimes! I have had the opportunity to meet so many amazing individuals as of late.
But I do know I’ve met some soulmeshers!
Yeah, I made up that word. Deal with it. I cannot say that I have met any soulmates but I have met people whose soul has meshed so well with mine.
The people I have newly befriended and those close friends I have been in touch with more are all people whose soul (or aura or energy or whatever term you fancy) resonates well with my own. Their energy, enthusiasm, and fresh take on life has been invigorating for me.
It’s okay for life to feel crazy.
It’s even okay to admit you had no idea what is going on. I certainly do not! We live our lives as best we can.
I try to make positive changes in my own life and I am eager to keep learning and improving myself. A major lesson I’ve learned: Openly loving the people we hold dear and making sure we use our time wisely by helping others is something we should regularly do; ultimately we are also helping ourselves.
Just try to fill the spaces in-between